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Assalamualaikum wbt..

Too soon for a new post, huh?
Just feel like spilling something on the blog.
Blog can be the best approach for people to know the other side of you,
and it can be the best camouflage to make people perceive you the way you want them to..
And as for now, with such monotonous and nonsense ramblings, can people tell me what am I thinking right now?
Will the alter ego me be figured out?
Would you think that I'm a weirdo, outer space human from 4 dimensional world, trying to adjust myself with this competitive surrounding, comprehending the equilibrium of justice and injustice, fate and luck?
I couldn't care less.

And grief, no matter how you try to cater to its wail, has a way of fading away. (Virginia Andrews).


إِنَّمَا يُوَفَّى الصَّابِرُونَ أَجْرَهُمْ بِغَيْرِ حِسَابٍ

Indeed, the patient will be given their reward without account.” [az-Zumar 39:10].

Sulayman ibn Qasim said that:

THE REWARD OF EVERY DEED IS KNOWN, EXCEPT FOR THE REWARD OF PATIENCE, WHICH WILL BE LIKE HEAVY RAIN.

There's more than what meets the eye.

MAK, AKU & SAKIT RUMAH.. T_T

Assalamualaikum wbt..

± 6 months being abroad.. (sigh).. I thought I am immune enough to counterback the HOMESICK virus yang selalunye mnyerang insan-insan sepertiku ini (who is miles and miles away from home).. Guess now I'm at my limit..

Well, if and only if Doraemon does exist, there will be only 2 things I'll ask from him; Pintu Suka Hati & Mesin Cahaya Masa. I know, I know that I'm starting to sound like outerspace human creature, rambling bout useless things (Doraemon? Seriously I need to escape from my 4 dimensional world). But, being intrinsic-ly alone brings out the other side of you... (Okay yana, stop rambling)

Out of blue, the motor neuron that innervates my digits sends impulses to my skeletal muscle yang gatal buka iGoogle tab.

SEARCHBOX : Jika terdengar suara azan, bergema sayu menjelang pagi

RESULT : Madah Terakhir - Orkes El Suraya / Rukiah Zain

Then, I clicked the link and listen to the song. My mom's fav.. MAK!! Orang rindu!!!! Selama ni kalo Skype @ VoipBuster ngan mak, I'll only talk about how I miss Malaysia; my family, the foods and the surrounding (eheh).. I never particularly said how much I miss her (or did I?). Instead, I'll ask :

"Mak rindu orang tak?"

And she'll always reply something like:

"Mak rindu sangat kat akak, tengok muka je kat komputer/dengar suara kat telefon tak puas, mak nak peluk akak sangat2.."

And I'll reply,

"(laughs) Iye ke? (nada x percaya + mngusik) Farah, Lin, Fikri & Husna kan ade.."

Mak will say:

"Takkan same punye dengan anak sulung mak tu.."

Even if I said I miss her, I wasn't being 100% truthful on that time (truk kan?) I did said sweet words for my Mom who longs for her eldest daughter (shakes head).. Mak!! Ampun! Orang betul-betul rindu sekarang nih!!!

The funny thing is, when I get sick (even minor sickness, eg: headache, stomache), I'll lie down on my bed, thinking about my Mom and remembering the things that she'll do when she sees me in that situation. Seriously, I hate medical appointments, meeting doctors, going to hospitals, swallowing pills (I'm not good at eating those). So, my Mom will be the one who apply the oinment @ picit my kepala. Erm, ingat mak bile sakit.. Ntah ape2 je, kan?

Okay, back to the Orkes El Suraya thingy, the "classic song" - says Kak Aqielah (bukan nama sebenar).. Put the link on my YM status.. Bile dengar lagu tu, terus rase berair mata ni... Nasib x meleleh je coz Yan n Maira were in the room. And I casually let them listening to it, casually saying that "It's my Mom's fav", with a broad, huge smile. And Kak Aqielah (bukan nama sebenar) buzzed kat YM n suruh nyanyi that classic song, i was like "Owh, ade gak orang dengar lagu ni ek".. Then, Sab (juga bukan nama sebenar) tegur kat YM and said something like "Syahdu sungguh lagu fav mak awak (kinda poetic, kan Sab?), kite pun rindu mak kite gak.. takpe, nanti kita balik Malaysia same-same, InsyaAllah.." On that particular time, I felt the surge to fly back home right away (hyperbola, I know). But then I realised, the reason of why I am here is because of my Mom and the family (second to Allah), and I should do my best to keep them happy, eventhough from afar. How? By doing my best in my study. And not to forget, always pray for them (& of course, increase the # of phone calls). Because...

وَوَصَّيْنَا الْإِنْسَانَ بِوَالِدَيْهِ حَمَلَتْهُ أُمُّهُ وَهْنًا عَلَى وَهْنٍ وَفِصَالُه فِي عَامَيْنِ أَنِ اشْكُرْ لِي وَلِوَالِدَيْكَ إِلَيَّ الْمَصِيرُ

وَإِنْ جَاهَدَاكَ عَلى أَنْ تُشْرِكَ بِي مَا لَيْسَ لَكَ بِهِ عِلْمٌ فَلَا تُطِعْهُمَا وَصَاحِبْهُمَا فِي الدُّنْيَا مَعْرُوفًا وَاتَّبِعْ سَبِيلَ مَنْ أَنَابَ إِلَيَّ ثُمَّ إِلَيَّ مَرْجِعُكُمْ فَأُنَبِّئُكُمْ بِمَا كُنْتُمْ تَعْمَلُونَ

And We enjoined upon man goodness towards his parents: his mother bore him by bearing strain upon strain, and his weaning takes two years. Hence, be thankful to Me and to your parents. With Me is the end of all journeys. Yet, should they endeavour to force you to make gods beside Allah, of whom you have no knowledge then do not obey them. But, even then keep them company in this world's life with customary good behaviour, but follow the faith of those who turn towards Me. [Luqman 31: 14-15.]

وَاخْفِضْ لَهُمَا جَنَاحَ الذُّلِّ مِنَ الرَّحْمَةِ وَقُلْ رَبِّ ارْحَمْهُمَا كَمَا رَبَّيَانِي صَغِيرًا

You shall lower to them your wings of humility and pray: "O Rabb! Bestow on them Your blessings just as they cherished me when I was a little child."(Al Israa' 17:24)

Dan, dengan penuh rasa gembira, besar hati dan bangga, saya ingin menyatakan bahawa:

And guys, this is my mom's fav song... Mind sharing your mom's? =)

Madah Terakhir

Jika terdengar suara azan
Bergema sayu menjelang pagi
Dalam irama ku kirim pesan
Sebagai tanda aku dah pergi

Jangan ditanya sebab kerena
Mengapa aku pergi menghindar
Dari kau dekat tapi merana
Elok ku jauh tinggal mendengar

( korus )
Biarlah aku pergi dahulu
Tidak tertahan lagi derita
Semoga yang tinggal senyum selalu
Yang pergi hilang lenyap berita

Bila kelak daku terkenang
Ku tatap bintang di malam kelam
Bila tak sanggup daku berenang
Ku relakan diri hanyut tenggelam

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Selamat Hari Lahir yang ke 49 buat Encik Syed Mohd Bakhtiar, bapa saya yang tersayang... 26 MAC

(I know, I supposedly dedicate this post for my father, for his birthday.. But our Prophet SAW says to obey mom 3 times more that dad, that's why I'm making the post for my Mom first ~ acceptable x reasoning tuh?) Abah! Orang akan buat satu post khas tentang Abah nanti ek.. Tunggu..... (^^)

Thanks to those who read this post till the end.. Check out this interesting link:

http://islamicstudiesbymuqith.blogspot.com/2009/03/from-surah-luqman-verses-13-19.html

Enjoy spilling my thoughts on blogger, although it took my precious 1 1/2 study hours.. Need to speed up after this.. >_<