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Assalamualaikum wbt and good day to everyone.

"Sorry seems to be the hardest word"

Nope, it’s not about that song, I am just quoting the above mentioned lyric, and just that.

Some people find this very agreeable, while I used to think differently.

I mean, what’s so hard about asking for forgiveness? I used to think that people who refuse to apologize are selfish people, and why would people want to be selfish and willing to take the pain of arguing back and forth when they can simply end it by saying “I’m sorry”, "Je mi lito", “It’s my fault” etc (you can add them up as you wish, the apology words I mean)

But, little did I know that I was partly wrong (and partly right), which goes down to :

1.       Asking for forgiveness is indeed hard.

2.       People who refuse to apologize are extremely selfish people, and that selfish people are willing to have endless arguments, just to prove that they are right and others are wrong.

It never occurred to me that the song by Elton John and (insertthegrouphere) [eden terlupa pulak, BLUE? Ade ke? CN BLUE memang ade. BLUE? Erm..] actually directed to those who are close to each other, I mean REALLY close.

Tapi kan, sebenarnya memang that song meant to be that way, tapi tu la, being the ignorant me, I just take the song at face value. (plus the only line and tune I know from that song is just “sorry seems to be the hardest word). *gelengkepala*

Okay, what I’ve been trying to say is, we find it really hard to say SORRY (and in addition, THANK YOU) to those people who are close to us, be it family or friends. Why? Here goes my explanation.

It is hard for us to apologize to family and friends after we did wrong because we don’t feel that we need to. Because, well, they are our family and friends, they are CLOSE to us, they KNOW US WELL. So if we did wrong, it is given that they will forgive us, right? So, why should we bother to apologize? 

It is hard for us to thank our family and friends after we receive help or something from them because we don’t feel that we need to. Because (again) they are our family and friends, they are CLOSE to us. It is given that they should help us when we are in need. So, why should we bother to thank them?

Note the bold words. That’s how we people become selfish; selfish people who take things for granted, not appreciating things we have. Because we always justify that things should be our ways because we deserve it.

People, be nice to your family, and be nice to your close ones. They are all we’ve got.

Try to be the ones to apologize first because you won’t lose anything. Instead you will gain more love and respect.

Don’t forget to be thankful to those people around you, because you won’t lose anything. Instead you will gain more love and respect.

Think how magical those words are in mending our relationship with people around us.

Actually this realization hit me after I myself got into conflict with somebody close to me. Aha, no detail of course, but it is fair to say that I’m trying to improve myself. *senyumdenganmatapandangkirikanan*

Dan sebetulnya, tak guna kalau kita beria-ia minta maaf dan berterima kasih dengan orang luar, kalau orang yang dekat dengan kita tak dilayan sebaik itu. Tak adil kan? 
(Betul, betul, betul – Ipin)

This is Diyana reminding you (and myself); just in case you (and I) forgot.

Sabda Rasulullah SAW yang bermaksud:

“Orang yang paling baik di kalangan kamu ialah orang yang paling baik (pergaulannya) dengan ahli keluarga dan aku adalah yang terbaik dari kalangan kamu dalam pergaulan dengan ahli keluargaku.”

(Ibnu Majah dan Ibnu Hibban).

It’s late, I know, but,

SALAM MAULIDUR RASUL.

And I miss the 9 girls dearly.
And I miss ex-occupants of Vyšehrad.
And I miss the girls in Apt 4 and 10.
지지 언니,당신을보고 싶어요.

I'll be there

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xg2vMrDzoXM

Dearest laling, you know who you are.
And yes, I'm re-dedicating this song for you and others.
And I mean it.

Na Shledanou, NOT..

I’m writing this for those people whom I’ll leave, whom I dreamed off in my sleep last night, and shed my tears for.

I’m writing this to tell them and myself, that I am okay, and I will always try to be okay; that they are okay, and will always be.

I’m writing this to remind them and myself, that although we are separated across the globe, we are still on the same place; that although we stand on different soils, our hearts remain together.

I’m writing this to tell them, that 5 years is a long time, yet it feels so short; that life taught me lots of things about myself and about them, but it feels like I learned so little.

I'm writing this to tell them, that I am thankful for everything, for all the things they have done for me, but the thing that I'm thankful the most is THEM, because they are the best thing ever happened in my life.

They shared a fair portion of my youth, a fair portion of my adolescence, and I shared theirs too.

They are the secret holders of mine, and the ones who know me inside and out.

They watched my growth, and I watched them grow.

At this last moment of being together, I would like to apologize to them for everything, and I forgive them for everything.

I will remember them, and will miss them dearly.

Do not say goodbye, because goodbye kills the hope of meeting again.

And who knows? We may meet again.

Say it. 
WE WILL MEET AGAIN, INSYAALLAH.

emirates, tanah melayu and me

Bismillah
I bought the ticket yesterday.
I'm going back to tanah melayu tomorrow.


After went hunting high and low for ticket 
(even considered helsinki, seoul, beijing and hong kong as transit),
akhirnya ada jugak tiket emirates 
(the regular ones with transit in dubai)
*insertmygrinhere*

The confirmation email 
(bragging here, because I'm a brat at heart)

Bukan sedikit orang cakap how fortunate i am to get the ticket for 800 euro in this peak season.
True, there could be a silver lining in my (dark?) cloud.


I was contemplating whether nak balik atau tak, and i said to kak alia that i'm scared my decision to go home for a while is not the right choice at the moment.
But kata-kata kak alia (as usual), left me with overwhelming feelings :
"Allah mudahkan awak untuk dapatkan tiket, Diyana, dengan harga yang murah pulak tu. Sedang kawan-kawan awak duk struggle cari tiket. It could only means that keputusan awak untuk balik tu adalah keputusan yang betul." 


I had a sharing session with kak alia (and few friends), and this video really pings my heart. Motivation for all hearts!








"Accept Allah as your Master, and accept yourself as a Slave" 
The second part is always the hardest one.


To Zizi 언니,  감사합니다  for the message. 
나도 사랑해요 =)

pain is a part of growing up

"Gagal sekali, bukan bermakna gagal selama-lamanya"
Ever heard of that?
It WAS my favourite quote (when I WAS back in school)
Ahh.. The innocence of childhood and teenhood.
I was too young, too idealistic back then, or perhaps, too optimistic(?)
Sebab? Jarang menghadapi kegagalan.
"Gagal sekali, bukan bermakna gagal selama-lamanya"
Kalau gagal berkali-kali? Macam mana?
Won't it be the sign that the thing I'm doing and working for right now is never meant to be my fate?
That perhaps I chose the wrong path?
That perhaps I should stop?
Perhaps I should turn my way back?


Baik, kenapa entri Cik Diyana sangat-sangat negatif pada kali ini?
Bad news, peeps.
I failed.
Gagal.
I know, it's not the end of the world yet.
Sangat tahu. Sangat faham.
Sebab ini bukan perkara biasa bila belajar di sini.
Semua orang rasa benda yang sama.
In fact.
I feel nothing right now.
Mental and emotional numbness.
Disebabkan dah terlalu banyak menghadapi mehnah & cabaran sedemikian rupa, dah tak tahu nak rasa apa.
As if my feelings have been drained out of myself.
Pasrahkah?
I was too calm when I accepted the failure. As if I lost hope.
No tears at all, just a lifeless sigh.
I was emotionally numbed, till I saw that tears.
My dear friend's tears when she learns about my failure.
I was emotionally numbed, till I heard her voice talking to me.
My dear sister's tone when she learns about my failure.
It made me realized that at this faraway land, I should be thankful that I have these precious people to be my crutches and pillars.
Jazakillah Sab, sebab menangis untuk kami.
Jazakillah Kak Alia, kerana kata-kata akak sentiasa menenangkan saya, dan mengingatkan betapa sebenarnya saya kuat kerana dipilih untuk diuji.
Jazakumullah semua, kerana sentiasa berada di sisi. 
Terkadang rasa kalian lebih dekat dari keluarga sendiri. 
Kalian sebahagian daripada saya, 
dan saya sebahagian daripada kalian.




These words are for my present and future self 
(should my future self encounter the same thing again)
Dearest self, these were the things you asked. 
Now listen to the answers.
Kalau gagal berkali-kali? Macam mana?
Won't it be the sign that the thing I'm doing and working for right now is never meant to be my fate?
Says who? Lot's of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.
Would you like to be those people? 
Persevere just a bit.
That perhaps I chose the wrong path?
When Allah made you choose something, He is with you, and He will always be with you along the way, as long as you believe in Him. 
Him being always with you, what more could you ask for?
That perhaps I should stop?
Yes, you should stop once in a while. Take a breather. 
Perhaps I should turn my way back?
Yes, do turn around. But don't walk back. 
Just turn around. 
And reflect.


p/s 1 : Yikes. My future self might be embarrassed to read this entry again. This post might get deleted anytime. It is written when I was overwhelmed with emotion.
p/s 2 : Called mak today. Told her that perhaps I'm coming home before taking the next exam, and she asked, "bile akak nak balik? esok?" 
[Myself, "uh-oh,makbuatlawak" (dalam hati)], 
and I answered her, "Mak, orang balik ni bukan naik bas transnasional boleh beli tiket balik esok terus," 
Mak gelak =), Sab yang tengah mendengar pun gelak sama. 

doa + matlamat (short, intermediate & long term) Part 1

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
First of all, pardon me for any inappropriateness that might come out from my poor usage of English (grammar, vocabulary & context wise). I'm known as a terrible grammar-butcher.
Secondly, as I write this post, it might evolve from being an intelligent post to something meaningless, but I sincerely hope that it could make you (or at least, me) to think and contemplate about an essence called LIFE.
Thirdly, As some of my readers know, I'm the type of person who makes lengthy post. So I'll try to make it in few parts to tackle this issue.. (eceh, bunyi macam penganalisis politik pulak.. Ooppss bahaya2, tukar2, penganalisis ekonomi.. =p) This is partly due to the encouragement of my "knighted brother" (mentor mentee yg sama time SBPIP dulu.. Yep Syam, i'm talking bout you), who told me to revive this dying blog.
Lastly, as some of my friends (and readers) know, I'm the type of person who does things on impulse; if something piqued my curiousity, I'll immediately take interest, but I'm also the type of person who gets discouraged easily. So, depending on response on this post, I'll decide whether to talk more about this issue in the next parts or not. (warghh.. delusional kah aku? Ada ke orang yang baca & menunggu post blog ni?)

*Enough for the introductions*

DOA = Du'a = Prayer = Supplication
Bila ditanya apa itu doa, the most famous saying will be : 
"Doa itu senjata Mukmin" =)
Semua orang tahu doa tu apa kan? But why not we try to see what are the take of Islamic scholars 
(whoa, how I love that word) 
about du'a.
Menurut buku "Du'a = The Weapon of the Believer" by Abu Ammar Yasir Qadhi (no no, don't misunderstand. I don't read this book, I got too much non-fictions in my unread list, putting more in the list is an absolute no-no) :
1.  du’ā is the verbal noun (masdar) of the verb ‘da’ā’ which symbolizes ‘to call out , to summon’ - Ibn Al Mandhūr al Afriqī (death date is unknown)
2. The meaning of du’ā is the servant’s asking his Lord for His Help, and asking his continued support. Its essence is that a person shows his neediness to Allāh, and frees himself from any power or ability to change (any matter by himself). This characteristic is the mark of servitude, and in it is the feeling of human submissiveness. Du’ā also carries the meaning of praising Allāh, and attributing to Him Generosity and Bounteousness.” - al Khattabī (d. 386 AH)
3. “Asking what is of benefit to the person, and asking the removal of what is harming him, or (asking) the repelling of it (before it affects him)” - Ibn Qayyim (d. 751 AH)

SERIOUSLY BRILLIANT, AND BEAUTIFUL, AYTE?

Maka, doa boleh disimpulkan sebagai :

1. Mainly as a form of worship (penyembahan) as stated in Surah Yunus (10:106)

Dan janganlah engkau (wahai Muhammad) menyembah atau memuja yang lain daripada Allah, yang tidak dapat mendatangkan manfaat kepadamu dan juga tidak dapat mendatangkan mudarat kepadamu. Oleh itu, sekiranya engkau mengerjakan yang demikian, maka pada saat itu menjadilah engkau dari orang-orang yang berlaku zalim terhadap diri sendiri dengan perbuatan syirik itu.

2. The verbal act of the seeking of aid (pertolongan), as a request (permintaan), call (panggilan), praise (pujian), or speech (ucapan), as stated in Surah al-Baqarah (2:186)

Dan apabila hamba-hambaKu bertanya kepadamu tentang Aku, maka (jawablah), bahawasanya Aku adalah dekat. Aku mengabulkan permohonan orang yang berdoa apabila ia memohon kepadaKu, maka hendaklah mereka itu memenuhi (segala perintah) Ku dan hendaklah mereka beriman kepadaKu, agar mereka selalu berada dalam kebenaran.

*there are just many, many Quranic verses talking about du'a & supplications. You peeps might encounter better example than mine*

Maka, the Ultimate Question (with no reference to the Hitchhiker's science fiction series) ialah :

Apa kaitan antara Doa dan Matlamat?

Pernahkah kita distinguish doa untuk matlamat jangka pendek, sederhana, dan panjang?

Let me clarify my take on these 3 things (personal opinions only, no bashing on me please, I'm not that deep of a thinker.)

Matlamat jangka pendek : All those things that are going to happen or you expect/want to happen in the near future (exams, wish of (keep) becoming good child and friend, the well being of your family and friends etc)

Matlamat jangka sederhana : (now this is interesting. hehe.) All those things that you expect/want to happen in, let's say 5-10 (may up to your lifespan). You (We) are actually moving towards it, but unconsciously. Pening ke? Ok la, eden bagi contoh : "Nak jadi doktor yang berjaya, isteri yang solehah, ibu yang baik, keamanan negara dan sebagainya."

Matlamat jangka panjang : No question friends, of course it's about our well-being in the HereAfter.

So, what's your take on this issue? (promoter's tone)

Share your (intellectual and amusing) opinions and arguments.

*earnestly hoping for responses* (runs-and-hides)

reference from : http://ibnalhyderabadee.wordpress.com

So long. (bows)

Wassalam wbt

p/s : Syam, post ni end up panjang jugak la... (-_-)"

of bunga telur and bally shoes

bismillahirrahmanirrahim

fuh fuh fuh (tiup sawang-sawang yang bersawang di laman sesawang ini)

assalamualaikum wbt

hi, hello, dobry den, and good day fellas!!!

(kini saya kembali setelah setahun berhibernasi daripada dunia penulisan.. eheh, rase macam self proclaimed celebrity pulak.. =p)

setahun berlalu, apa yang berubah?

banyak...... but let's save them for the next topic, shall we?

so mengapakah setelah setahun menyepi diri, cik diyana memulakan entry baru beliau dengan tajuk kontroversi sebegini?

who remembers the title above? (raise your hand, peeps, if you do)

anyways, for those who remembers, you guys are surely awesome nerds (and that, includes me, coz even after 10 years, i still remember the story)

for those who don't, do not feel sad just because you can't remember, but be glad because you just experiencing the symptoms of normal physiological process, called ageing.. XD

okies, back to the main topic..

well, as now i'm about 21 years 11 months 14 days, i'm about to enter the new era.. era of BIG TWO TWO..

sekarang ni banyak members yang dah kahwin, baru kahwin, plan nak kahwin etc...

no,no peeps.. i don't have any problem at all with all this people with marriage issues..

lagi suka adalah, sebab membina masjid, meramaikan umat nabi...

the only thing that i hate is that the fact that i cannot join the kenduri/celebration.. (melepas makan nasi minyak orang kahwin.. it's been more than 3 years... *cries*)

so what leads me to talk about this marriage thingy?

well, i had this conversation with my friend about marriage: whom to marry, when to marry, preparations yada yada..

this friend of mine ni ade somebody someone yang basically study the same course ngan die, n study kat tempat yang sama ngan die (and don't ask who! korang bukan kenal pun... btw let's call her miss A)

A told me about her and and noticed that i seemed a little bit displeased(?)..

but seriously i'm not being jealous or anything (okay, a little, i admit.. (-_-)"),

but hey, sape x cemburu bile tgk kawan2 dah start proceed to the next stage of life? mesti ade, walaupun sedikit..

but of course, tak lama.. why? because i have friends with me, whom will always be there with me, come hell or high water.. (insert MJ's "i'll be there" here)... okay girls, group hug please, group hug... \(^^)/

long story short, A asked me if anything gonna change between her and people around her if she changes her status from single to marrried. basically she talks about how her friends la..

initially i answered her question, playfully, but as i talk, the discussion gets real..

i told her that if my close friend gets married, something will change for sure..

for an instance (and indeed, i only gave her one example), her world will not only revolves around her family and girlfriends, but her other half too (the Mister Husband).. her centre of attention will be changed...

and i found myself giving a very weird analogy, but it served the purpose well..

"kalo dulu kitorang yang kawan-kawan ko ni jadi matahari kat tengah cakerawala ni.. lepas ko kahwin, kitorang ni jadi planet-planet je.."

and she ROFLed.. (okay, i was exagerrating)..

well peeps, basically this entry has nothing intellectual.. just want to ramble (publicly) after one year abandoning my lovely sanctuary..

to A, be grateful because you are the reason for my re-blogging activity..

insyaAllah, next entry will be more interesting, and informative, and lots of story.. =)

p/s : btw A, kalo kitorang jadi planet-planet pun x apa lagi, janganlah jadikan kitorang ni asteroid atau komet ye.. XD

r.A.n.D.o.M.n.E.e.S.s

Love these random pics..

Especially the first one.. \(^^)/

Credits to david & goliath (claps)

And of course, todd goldman..

B.i.T.t.E.r.S.w.E.e.t

Assalamualaikum wbt..

It's been a while since i last updated my blog..

Just now, I log into my Friendster (yg dh lama bersawang), and i noticed one unread message sent to me since, say, more than 6 months ago?

Well, who was it from?

It's my primary school friend. A friend of 4 years. (Darjah 2, 3, 5, 6.. well at that time we still have PTS)

Honestly my primary school isn't an interesting topic to talk about.

Have u ever watch @ read about a nerdy - country bumpkin - who - constantly - being - bullied - by - others?

Well fellas, that's me.. (gosh, tears starting to well up)

When I was a six-grader, I got "promoted" to an elite class. (We used to have double standards for students with different level. I bet our education system still have it now). The so called "promotion" separated me from my dear friends. Being clueless in my new "elite class", I tried to make friends with my classmates. But everything went wrong. I don't know whether it was because my inability or lack of creativity to make friends, or perhaps they were just too elite to be my friend. (You see, my father was a mere taxi driver back then, and my classmates parents are all profs, teachers and docs..)

You may think that such bullying doesn't exist, but hey, it happened to me! For real!

So since I couldn't make friends with them (and since I can't hang out constantly with my old friends), I go to the last resort --> the teachers.

But hey, I'm not the type of person who'll complaint about other's wrongdoings and smearing other's reputation.

So what did I do with the teachers?

I befriended them. Why? Because I hope that when I'm in good terms with teachers, I could make friends with my classmates.

But the plan backfires.

It's just fair to say that being a favourite student doesn't make you a favourite friend either (oh wait, I'm just a mere classmate to them, aren't I?

But you see, I was being "used" the whole year by my class. How? Let's put it this way : My elite friends, ironically, are the troublemakers in the school. So whenever teachers get angry with them, I will be sent to apologize. Call me fool, people. I admit that I was a fool. I was just too desperate to be accepted as part of their "society".

I didn't remember how many times I cried in silence for all the things that happened to me. Why was school is so horrible? The only thing that makes me go to school everyday is because of the teachers and my mom (and also my dad, to prove myself to him. That's off topic). Do you wonder who stood up for me when I was bullied? It was my younger sister, a sister whom I have a constant fight with. Yep, I was such a weakling that I couldn't talk back whenever I'm being bullied. That was me, the old me.

My mom used to say that although I never tell her about my problems, she knows it, all this while. She says that my "experience" during primary school - particularly 6th grade - molds my personality.

Yep, I know.

I have a hard look, I have a serious expression, I constantly glaring although I don't mean to, I don't smile, and I'm unapproachable.

All these were initially my defense mechanism for the bullyings that yet to come in my high school life. And believe me, I think I survived because of that.

But unfortunately, these "defense mechanism" slowly turn to become my trait.

Particularly towards XY creatures (no offense, friends). I can't help myself being serious and stern to them whenever they are around. And sometimes towards my XX friends too. But I tried to change myself for better, to make me fit enough in the real world. I tried, and still am.

So, I'd like to :

1. apologize to those who might have been hurt by me (be it my words @ actions), for whatever reason. I'm trully sorry.

2. ask whether should I keep in contact with those people in my primary school life? Because if it comes to my un-common-sense, I'd like to forget everything, although they are trying hard to re-connect with me. (aish.. macam nak berpatah arang lah pulak)

3. If someone from my primary school happen to read this, and think that I was and am wrong, please let me know.

4. If someone not related to my primary school life but would like to spill their thoughts, please have your space. I need an advice for the resentment I harbour for years.

p/s : this is the most honest post I've made about myself, I think. There are lots of emotion. (aww cheesy la pulak), and I don't think that I'll be able to put such post again.

salam perantauan..

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Just wanna put a short note on this video i sent to harian metro..

(dah lama dh hantar, igt hmetro x nak kluarkan ke, ape ke)

currently we can see this video on harianmetro punye homepage..

nevertheless, i'll just try to post it here..

(1st time post video kat blog, ntah menjadi @ x)

walaupun agak lama laman sesawang ini dibiarkan bersawang, saya masih ingin mengucapkan :

salam ramadhan al mubarak

p/s: credit to my cute junior, sara hanapi for telling me bout this video.. ^^

p.A.k - M.a.L.a.U

Assalamualaikum wbt.

(Malay mode activated. My English was too rusty currently. Why? Beats me.)

Alhamdulillah, sekarang dh hmpir 1/2 bulan kita berpuasa.. ^^

Baru tadi buka puasa dengan nasi dagang (hence the title Pak Malau.. kalo korang tengok cite Sri Mersing, try ingat balik dialog Nordin Ahmad.. hehe)

Ade dekat setahun kot x makan nasi dagang. Dah lupa macam mane rase nasi dagang yang sepatutnye. Main combine & mix resepi-resepi dari mesra.net & myresepi.com.. hehe.. Alhamdulillah, "menjadi" jugak setelah bertapa satu malam buat kuah ikan tuh.. (hyperbola, i know) Plus, kire berbaloi gak buat nasi dagang nih lepas sesat di Krymska last week gara-gara nak cari ikan.. hehe..

(jeritan batinku)--> Mak!!! Orang berjaya buat nasi dagang akhirnya!! For the first time!! (toothy grin)

Komen dari sahabat serumah :

Yan --> OK (kirenye huge success la sebab beliau orang Ganu. kalo mung kate gitu doh, doh nok kate gane lagi?)

Azhani --> [non-verbal response] (beliau menambah portion nasi... hihihi.. berjaye!!)

Ain --> sedap, sedap (beliau merujuk kepada kuah ikan especially.. hehe)

Lyn --> Thanks Di... (dengan wajah "comel")

Komen dari satu-satunya tetamu:

Kak Firyal --> Alhamdulillah, lepas "hajat" nak makan nasi dagang. (mengidam kot sebenarnye.. hehe)

*hajat hati nak jemput adik-beradik kat Jana Masaryka... tp x dpt, sbb x cukup portion nasi.. (beras pulut udah kehabisan dong.. mau ke Krymska lagi aku udah enggak larat deh..)

InsyaAllah, kalo ade masa lagi, kite buat nasi dagang lagi ek.. hehe.. but honestly, buat nasi dagang ni agak cerewet la.. i wonder what gives me the determination to keep up along the process.. erm, perhaps the immense crave drives me, since i last ate nasi dagang for, say 1 year? (garu kepala)...

p/s : time habis makan tadi, duk layan fb, tgk satu video yang telah menjentik naluri ingin tahu ku..

ingatkan pure video seram.. alas, it was a prank video.. well, it has the same essence : create "something" yang kononnya mysterious, berhenti kat babak tertentu, ulang tayang babak tu beberapa kali sampai mata naik juling sebab nak fokus punye pasal, and at the time when u don't see that coming..

POUUFFFF!!

keluar gambar orang terbeliak biji mata n terjelir lidah with an "awful" audio of woman screaming..

and it had me screaming too, alone in my room, when ain was doing the dishes, yan was in the toilet whilst azhani n lyn were in their room.. what the fish.. -_-"

anyway, it leads to one discovery. never once in my 20 years of life, jerit macam tu sekali.. it's not like the feminine cry or masculine shout or whatnot.. it wasn't a shriek either... entah la.. dah lupa macam mana bunyi jerit tadi.. yang pasti none of my housemates could guess that the one who was screaming was me..

Azhani actually came barging in my room, with "ko ape hal?" look. she was in total disbelief (or so i thought) that she just heard me screaming with that kind of voice..

ugh, terjejas imej macho-ku... what a jest, what a joke, what a lousy joke.. can't believe i fall for that one..

-_-"

~Someone once said that the only two things that motivate an enlightened person are LOVE and CURIOSITY~

But beware with curiosity, coz curiosity killed the cat..

H.a.N.d.i.C.a.P.p.E.d.?

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Recently, I stumbled upon these sayings, kinda hit me right in the face..

"Everyone is handicapped in some way"

True...

Nobody's perfect.. That's why everyone must be together, come hell or high water; because we are imperfect, but we could perfect each other (dunno if I got the grammar right, but I hope you got the message).

Well, let us put it this way.. A piece of jigsaw puzzle is nothing more than a mere, meaningless paper. But, if we put all the pieces together, it turns out to be a meaningful picture, aye?

"Everything has it's beauty, but not everyone sees it."

True...

Everything = segala-galanya, be it good or bad thing. Okies, cut out that good part. Berapa ramai orang yang masih boleh tersenyum bila ditimpa kesusahan? Berapa ramai orang yang boleh terima musibah tanpa bertanya "Kenapa mesti aku?". Berapa ramai orang yang cakap "Alhamdulillah" bila ditimpa nasib malang? And one last question; Adakah kita tergolong dalam orang-orang di atas?

"Everyone has skeleton(s) in their closet"

True...

It's just the matter of how big and how much "jerangkung" we have in our closet. Although you think that your secrets are safe with you, be thankful that HE doesn't blow your cover up. (Yes, we are players on the stage, so said Shakespeare). Be grateful that HE keeps your secret, because HE loves you and gives you chance to change yourself for better. So that if your "closet" is opened and the "jerangkung" is out on THAT DAY, you wouldn't be too ashamed to say that you have changed for better.

"I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I wish to be something for someone"

True...

We can't even satisfy our needs and wants, so how is it possible to satisfy other's? Yep, we cannot be everything, but we can be something; and that something means "some"-->plural.

So, expand your view, vision and mission! But let it be one at a time. After your current task is done, start with a new one. ^^

فَإِذَا فَرَغْتَ فَانصَبْ

Therefore, when thou art free (from thine immediate task), still labor hard, (94:7)

وَإِلَى رَبِّكَ فَارْغَبْ

And to thy Lord turn (all) thy attention. (94:8)

Sekian...

Below is a gag for my dearest sisters slash best buddies in Apartment 7 Karlovo Nam. and Jana Masaryka :

Insan yang cemerlang datangnya daripada akal yang sihat, hati yang bersih, dan jiwa yang tenang.

Renung-renungkan. Selamat beramal. ^^

his-sto-lor-jee

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Today was hard. I had a histology exam, with Prof Martinek as my examiner. It was hard. He was hard (or so I thought). I can answer the questions ON the paper, but when it comes to oral exam with him, he starts to explore the question in broader sense (and deeper too), and that make me go blank and feel like a fool.

Then I try to nail down my problem :

1. I wasn't prepared enough (I should go with the book rather than the otazky)

2. I had a problem in conversing with my examiner

3. I was super-scared.

Enough said. I am the only one to blame. -_-"

Nevertheless, everything happened with reasonS. And there must be lots and lots of good things awaiting me ahead. In a way, I am grateful.. Perhaps this is a reminder for me..

Bila engkau memandang segalanya dari Tuhanmu,yang mencipta segalanya, yang menimpakan uijan, yang menjadikan sakit hatimu, yang membuat keinginanmu terhalang, serta menyusahkan hidupmu, pasti akan damailah hatimu kerana masakan Allah sengaja mentakdirkan segalanya untuk sesuatu yang sia-sia, bukan Allah tidak tahu deritanya hidupmu, retaknya hatimu, tapi mungkin itulah yang Allah mahukan kerana Allah tahu hati yang sebeginilah lebih mudah lunak dan mudah dekat dan akrab denganNya...

"Ya Allah, jika rezekiku masih di langit, turunkanlah, dan jika di dalam bumi, keluarkanlah,
jika sukar, permudahkanlah, jika haram, sucikanlah dan jika jauh, dekatkanlah."

Alhamdulillah, after several talk with several people, I'm back to myself. Thanks fellas.. U know who U r.. ^^

P/S : Kakak saya akan menuju ke gerbang alam rumah tangga pada 17 Julai 2010.. Weee... Mabruk, mabruk Kak Alia!! ^^,

(feels like singing Maher Zain's right now)

Barakallahhulaka wabaraka 'alaika wa jama'a bainakuma fi khoir

“Semoga Allah memberi berkah kepadamu dan atasmu serta mengumpulkan kamu berdua (pengantin laki-laki dan perempuan) dalam kebaikan.”HR. Penyusun-penyusun kitab Sunan, kecuali An-Nasai dan lihat Shahih At- Tirmidzi 1/316.

Reminder

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Another post? That's fast! That's rare!

Attention readers! This post is gonna be SOO LONG.. So, if you guys are expecting me to ramble and talk about some crappy things, this is not the right one for you. Because this post falls under the category "REMINDER". Look at the title, and look at the tag. So this post serves the educational and reminding purpose. Nevertheless, I sincerely hope that you would care to read this, and care to share your thoughts.

Any comments or critics are welcome.

BUT, if you don't bother to read, the pleasure is entirely yours.

Whatever you say about me, be it good or bad things, I LIVE..

Bak kata pepatah Melayu, "Tak hidup dek puji, tak mati dek keji"

Coz I have Him... That would never judge me the way other people judges. The only judge whose verdict matters to me.

First and foremost, this post is not meant to encourage hatred towards YAHUDI..

Although some of us might say that we should, I'd like to quote some words from the book "Online dengan Tuhan", written by Zulkifli Khair.

Jangan mudah mengatakan bahawa semua Yahudi itu jahat, hal ini berdasarkan 2 hujah:

1 : Yahudi juga terangkum dalam Bani Israel, sedangkan ramai nabi dan rasul daripada kalangan Bani Israel seperti Yaakub, Yusuf dan lain-lain bagi menyelamatkan mereka supaya kembali ke jalan yang benar.

2 : Ramai dalam kalangan Yahudi yang anti-zionis termasuk rabbi (seperti paderi bagi Kristian). Malah, mereka berganding bahu bersama umat Islam dalam menentang Zionisme dan Israel.

Contoh orang Yahudi yang merupakan tokoh Islam.

1. Muhammad Asad (Leopold Weiss)

Terkenal dengan buku The Road to Mecca, menghasilkan tafsir lengkap (The message of Al Quran)

2. Maryam Jameelah (Margaret Marcus)

Menghasilkan buku-buku seperti Islam in Theory and Practice, Correspondence between Maulana Maudoodi and Maryam Jameelah Modern, dan Technology and the Dehumanization of Man.

3. Abdullah bin Sailam (al-Hussain bin Sailam)

Rabbi Yahudi pertama yang memeluk Islam. Pengislaman beliau diikuti oleh isteri dan anak-anaknya. Merupakan salah seorang sahabat yang dijanjikan syurga.

Nevertheless, we have to be aware with Y.A.H.U.D.I.

I was surfing the internet when I found this:

Dalam Al-quran sedikitnya disebutkan 22 sifat buruk bangsa Yahudi, iaitu:

1. Keras hati dan zalim (Al-Baqarah:75,91,93,120,145,170; An-Nisa:160; Al-Maidah:41)

2. Kebanyakan fasik dan sedikit beriman kepada Allah SWT (Ali Imran:110; An-Nisa:55)

3. Musuh yang paling bahaya bagi orang-orang Islam (Al-Maidah:82)

4. Amat mengetahui kekuatan dan kelemahan orang-orang Islam seperti mereka mengenal anak mereka sendiri (Al-An’am:20)

5. Mengubah dan memutarbalikkan kebenaran (Al-Baqarah:75,91,101,140,145,211; Ali Imron:71,78; An-Nisa:46; Al-Maidah:41)

6. Menyembunyikan bukti kebenaran (Al-Baqarah:76,101,120,146; Ali Imron:71)

7. Hanya menerima perkara-perkara atau kebenaran yang dapat memenuhi cita rasa atau nafsu mereka (Al-Baqarah:87,101,120,146; Al-Maidah:41)

8. Ingkar dan tidak dapat menerima keterangan dan kebenaran AlQuran (Al-Baqarah:91,99; Ali Imron:70)

9. Memekakkan telinga kepada seruan kebenaran, membisukan diri untuk mengucapkan perkara yang benar, membutakan mata terhadap bukti kebenaran dan tidak menggunakan akal untuk menimbangkan kebenaran (Al-Baqarah:171)

10. Mencampuradukkan yang benar dan yang salah, yang hak dan yang batil (Ali Imran:71)

11. Berpura-pura mendukung orang Islam tetapi apabila ada di belakang orang-orang Islam, mereka mengutuk dengan sekeras-kerasnya (Al-Baqarah:76; Ali Imran:72,119)

12. Hati meraka sudah tertutup akan Islam kerana dilaknat oleh Allah SWT yang disebabkan oleh kekufuran mereka sendiri (Al-Baqarah:88,120,145,146)

13. Kuat berpegang pada rasa kebangsaan mereka dan mengatakan bahwa mereka adalah bangsa yang istimewa yang dipilih oleh Tuhan dan menyakini agama yang selain daripada Yahudi adalah salah (Al-Baqarah:94,111,113,120,135,145; Al-Maidah:18)

14. Tidak akan ada kebaikan untuk seluruh manusia jika mereka memimpin (An-Nisa:53)

15. Tidak suka, dengki, iri hati terhadap orang-orang Islam (Al-Baqarah:90,105,109,120)

16. Mencintai kemewahan dan kehidupan dunia, bersifat tamak dan rakus, menginginkan umur yang panjang dan mengejar kesenangan serta takut akan kematian (Al-Baqarah:90,95,96,212)

17. Berkata bohong, mengingkari janji dan melampaui batas (Al-Baqarah:100,246,249 Ali Imran:183,184; An-Nisa:46)

18. Berlindung di balik mulut yang manis dan perkataan yang baik (Al-Baqarah:204,246; Ali Imron:72; An-Nisa:46)

19. Mengada-ada perkara-perkara dusta dan suka kepada perkara-perkara dusta (Ali Imran:24,94,183,184; Al-Maidah:41)

20. Berlaku sombong dan memandang rendah terhadap orang-orang Islam (Al-Baqarah:206,212,247)

21. Tidak amanah dan memakan hak orang lain dengan cara yang salah (Ali Imran:75,76; At-Taubah:34)

22. Selalu melakukan kerosakan dan menganjurkan peperangan (Ali Imran:64)

Wallahualam.

Source : http://ohislam.com/22-sifat-buruk-bangsa-yahudi-tertulis-dalam-al-quran/

Care to share your thoughts? I welcome any piece of mind, worth to ponder..